It has taken me 40 hours and 32 seconds to compile this blog, with my husbands assistance (of course I am exhagirating - that is something that I do by the way) - I am now tired but my mind is still busy. Finding a picture that brings me across effectively was the first big hurdle and I must admit looking at pictures of myself has never been one of my favour ate things and I often after doing so I have to eat a whole cake or sit and cry somewhere just to feel better! I have 36 years worth of stories, drama and amazing moments that I feel I want to share with the world, over and above this desire I am in huge need to give comments and criticize and maybe even find solutions for all the shit going on around me and with me which might be my way of contributing to something or someone, or maybe I should just get off my ass and do something about it, then again maybe not for now .....I will wait until I have enough guts!
What I want to talk about and a lot of the theme of this blog is based on the "purple pearl" which is an interesting concept that I found out about the other day (for those of you that have read eat, pray,love by Elizabeth Gilbert- it was reading her book I found this piece of info) - she talks about how they monitor brain movement in people with scans with the objective of trying to establish stuff about aura's and then they discovered that when you think busy thoughts the colors of the brain goes between red and yellow - so they scanned the brain of a monk while he was going into meditation to see what does the moment look like when he achieves what is called the ultimate moment of connection with the universe, god, your soul whatever and on the scan once he was completely calm and in a trans-like state the whole brain became dark with a purple colored section in the middle - this is called the "purple pearl" that moment that all makes sense, your are calm, grounded and one with your surroundings - and this my dear friend is what I am looking for .... talk later have to go sleep now and have cigarette, yes I smoke... a lot!