•Wednesday, July 22, 2009
So I am out of fancy stuff now I quote ABBA for what it is worth to describe my absolute sensation of dispair regarding money in my life - I am sure there are many many people that are dealing with this little issue in their life in this year of 2009. It most certainly takes you to new levels within your own being that you did not know exist and it forces you to deal with issues that normal can comfortably lay dormant under the carpet in some back room in the great big world of your soul.
I have learned about minimalism like never before in my life over the last two weeks. Keeping a brave face and holding the line when all you want to do is run into the opposite direction away from the moment and whatever is in front of you!
Then I have moments where I read, see and hear of people that are really worse of than me that just has to deal with the fact that I have to count my pennies - I always think of the kids that has to face cold winter nights with hardly any protection from natures forces....I am really depressed and for the first time I think it is for the right reasons not because my ass is to big or my skin are not tight enough but because of hard facts of life , bottom line stuff to do with breathe, eat and you know what.....our consumer driven life has really brought us to a nasty place - but good as without this year we would have never been in a position to face up to our own greedy and selfish ways of living.
I do not pray enough but today I want to send a prayer way up high into the universe asking for mercy on our souls - and grace on our kids who suffer as a result of our unthoughtful actions.
On a lighter note I am seeing the first signs of this winter moving away - the sister really got to me this year in every way the cold was the final breaking point in my situation and mindset. I am so looking forward to summer I plan to suck up and stand still to catch every single ray of sunlight on my skin. I am going to abuse the pool and drink pinacolada's (if I have the money) until I just cannot anymore!
On an even lighter note my sister is in looovveee....I love that she is in love and I love LOVE it is so pretty and moving when it starts (she told me not to write about her in my blog) but it will take time for her to discover this little mentioning of her situation so I will use it and then deal with whatever she has to say when she does discover it - she is so in love I think it will be fine and she will be mush more lenient because of her state!
So now I will go and work for the biggest company in the world - selling black gold to needy consumers and greedy industries ......for all of us I hope every moment will bring us closer to what we need to know to live this life ...thank you for listening to all that I am.
I have learned about minimalism like never before in my life over the last two weeks. Keeping a brave face and holding the line when all you want to do is run into the opposite direction away from the moment and whatever is in front of you!
Then I have moments where I read, see and hear of people that are really worse of than me that just has to deal with the fact that I have to count my pennies - I always think of the kids that has to face cold winter nights with hardly any protection from natures forces....I am really depressed and for the first time I think it is for the right reasons not because my ass is to big or my skin are not tight enough but because of hard facts of life , bottom line stuff to do with breathe, eat and you know what.....our consumer driven life has really brought us to a nasty place - but good as without this year we would have never been in a position to face up to our own greedy and selfish ways of living.
I do not pray enough but today I want to send a prayer way up high into the universe asking for mercy on our souls - and grace on our kids who suffer as a result of our unthoughtful actions.
On a lighter note I am seeing the first signs of this winter moving away - the sister really got to me this year in every way the cold was the final breaking point in my situation and mindset. I am so looking forward to summer I plan to suck up and stand still to catch every single ray of sunlight on my skin. I am going to abuse the pool and drink pinacolada's (if I have the money) until I just cannot anymore!
On an even lighter note my sister is in looovveee....I love that she is in love and I love LOVE it is so pretty and moving when it starts (she told me not to write about her in my blog) but it will take time for her to discover this little mentioning of her situation so I will use it and then deal with whatever she has to say when she does discover it - she is so in love I think it will be fine and she will be mush more lenient because of her state!
So now I will go and work for the biggest company in the world - selling black gold to needy consumers and greedy industries ......for all of us I hope every moment will bring us closer to what we need to know to live this life ...thank you for listening to all that I am.
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